anxiety, COVID-19, Multiple Sclerosis, Not Today MS, pandemic, panic attacks

MRI Panic Attack

***TRIGGER WARNING*** If you have claustrophobia or have never had an MRI, this is not the post for you. I have better posts on MRIs for you (just search MRI in the search bar). This one is not suitable for anyone about to get their first MRI. I don’t want to unnecessarily fill you with… Continue reading MRI Panic Attack

anxiety, cancer, Christmas, COVID-19, Faith, Family, grief, joy, Multiple Sclerosis, Not Today MS, pandemic, panic attacks

Control Freak

As I've gotten older, one thing I've learned is to lean into people I trust to tell me what I need to hear, whether I like it or not. Don't misunderstand, there will always be people who want to tell you what to do and they won't always be people you trust... Make sure you… Continue reading Control Freak

anxiety, Faith, Family, Multiple Sclerosis, Not Today MS, panic attacks, Running, Uncategorized

I refuse.

I refuse to become a pessimist. Even though I have been shocked and disappointed by people I loved and respected over the last couple of years... Even though my heart has broken over lost friendships and lost people. I refuse to change my "Pollyanna"/believe the best in people attitude just so I won't be heartbroken… Continue reading I refuse.

anxiety, Faith, grief, joy, Not Today MS, panic attacks

It’s going to be okay.

I’m not going to lie. The last two days have been rough. Reality of our new normal setting in. I haven’t stepped foot in any kind of store or restaurant in over a week and I likely won’t be allowed to for a very long time. My daughter just found out she will be out… Continue reading It’s going to be okay.

Faith, Family, joy, Not Today MS, panic attacks, Uncategorized

Cynicism… and a bonus book review!

Cynicism is defined as "an inclination to believe that people are motivated purely by self-interest; skepticism." The world wants us to believe cynicism is cool. That the cynics are the ones who won't be fooled. No one is going to pull a fast one on them! But, having lived as a complete cynic for the… Continue reading Cynicism… and a bonus book review!

anxiety, Faith, Family, joy, panic attacks, Podcast, Uncategorized

Episode 17: Bethany’s Fight for Joy!

Bethany Lane Gocking is our 14-year-old daughter. We talk about her a lot here on the podcast. She is funny, kind, and thoughtful. She’s a deep thinker. She’s very artistic. And right now, she is coming out of one of the hardest battles for joy she’s ever faced.  When we prayed and planned Season 2… Continue reading Episode 17: Bethany’s Fight for Joy!